Desperation

Living a life of quiet desperation, yearning to break free.
Wavings are crashing overhead. Life is never what it seems to be.
I am drowning in a sea of discontent. Wanting more, getting less -
never enough - everything is second-rate,
less than best.

I am trapped between tomorrow and yesterday
Too many called in debts, but too poor to pay
Heaven beckons, hell awaits
The world watches while it falls apart

Like atoms seperating
Leaving destruction in the wake
I am Destruction's Bride
Heaven I want - but hell I'll take

Gnashing my teeth, I claw my way -
Not quite free, but treading water in this sea
Swimming, Drowning, Living
Malcontentedly.

- cmt 5:14pm 11/08/2006