Do you ever feel like your life is being unraveled, one thread at a time?
I'm feeling that way today. It seems that when things start looking up for us something always comes crashing in to destroy the positive vibe. Things aren't going so well right now. It seems that I'm on the edge and about to be pushed.
We have several situations that are rearing their ugly heads:
1) Our other house - we own a second home. This was not a house bought for a nice vacation spot. It wasn't even a house we wanted or needed. No, we bought a house at auction so my mother-in-law wouldn't be homeless. She promised to pay us rent - and did for a couple of months. But, she's paid us nothing since July. Now, she says she's found someplace else to live. That's all well and good - but when the fuck are is she going to get out of this house? And then...we have all these decisions about what to do with it when she does. It will cost money to fix it up enough to sell for a decent profit. She let the house go to pot and there's is so much damage and crap that it's going to take several thousand dollars to get it in sellable (liveable) condition. Add to the fact that we live 350 miles from where this other home is located, and you can see my frustration.
That leads me into #2...
2) Job Situation - today, we were informed that our CEO was fired. Not only was he fired, but our board is shopping the company around to sell it out. Basically a cheap sale so they can get out from under the debt. There will probably be staffing cuts (we have less than 15 employees currently). This is rather distressing considering that my husband and I both work for the same company. We've been here for 8/9 years. We've weathered some major shit with them before, but this time....I just don't know. We're on the cusp here. It's make it or break it time. We have to cut back. Not spend any money. Save every dime. There's the real dilemma. If we lose our jobs, where does the money come from to pay for the house renovations and our everyday living expenses. And don't even get me started on health insurance! We got to have health insurance.
Gah! I give up. I really do feel like people are pulling out the threads that make up the cloth of my life. And there's nothing I can do to stop them. I'm just waiting on the tear that rips it all to shreds.
I hate feeling helpless.
