Yep, it certainly has.
A lot has changed. Yet, so much has stayed the same.
1. I am still no closer to understanding the meaning of life than I ever was.
2. I am still not a mother - although, I guess you could say that I'm much closer to being so than ever before. Currently going through the home study for a domestic adoption. We're working with the Anderson Crisis Pregnancy Center. Presumably, we are matched with an expectant mom. If all goes well, we might be bringing home a little sweetling in July. I can't really dare to dream that it will happen, however. It seems like the minute I get my hopes up everything begins to crash down. I want to believe, and I do that *someday* it will happen. I just don't know if I can believe that it might actually happen so soon. Keep the prayers going, guys! We definitely need them.
3. I am still dissatisfied with large segments of my life. Career making up the largest segment of that. I think that I will still be here until I am old and gray. Despite attempting to escape, my options have once again run dry. I just want to become a stay at home mom already. I'm ready to try that career on for size.
4. I will never understand why I am invisible to some people, even when I try try to try to be a part of their lives. My blog posts are ignored. Some of my "friends" on MySpace don't even return my emails. I honestly don't ask for much. Just a email in return for those that I send. A simple phone call ever few months with someone on the other end actually engaged and listening to what I have to say (not tuning out the second I start telling what's going on in my life). Right now, I am probably in need of support more than ever. And I don't feel that I am getting it from anyplace that I look. It makes me both sad and angry because I like to think (even if that is in error) that I am there for everyone else.
5. I do still love my husband. Tomorrow will be 8 years of matrimonial bliss. Yay, us! We've been very stressed for the last couple of months. I genuinely believe that a vacation, a change of pace and scenery would do us good. We desperately need some time to reconnect. Right now, I think that we are both very frazzled with pressure, external pressures, and newly added pressures with a change in our job situations that we've not been the best of partners as of late. I just want us to get back on the same path and enjoy each other again.
6. I had to rehome my sugar gliders in April. The house is quieter. I no longer have to make glider-sanctioned trips to the grocery store for supplies, but I do miss the little fuzzbutts.
I don't think that things have changed a whole lot - but looking over this, I guess they have. So many things are still in the planning and preparation stage that I don't have anything concrete to report. Maybe with my next post I'll be able to post pics of a new daughter. Fingers crossed!
